After taking some much needed time away from LA, I've finally returned to my home and am very content. This year calls for great transformation (that's my word) and while I've got some plans and intentions in the works, I can definitely say that I'm much more at peace with where I'm at in my life. And for me, that's a huge win.
Coming off the holiday season where there can be a lot of stress, tension and excitement, some folks might feel this grand pressure to have everything squared away by January 1st. With all this hype and anticipation over resolutions, making change and getting to the gym, it can leave you in a dizzying spell. And while I'm alllll about implementing change (especially when the new year chimes in), I've chosen a different way this time.
Over my break, I read a great book titled, 'Stop Self-Sabotage' by Pat Pearson, and one of my favorite exercises she includes is using the phrase, I am in the process... or I am choosing.... instead of I will do.... I have decided to....This eases your mind out of the stress or anxiety that may follow from making such an extreme or hard decision (unless that’s your style, in which case, go for it). I’m speaking to those who might desire a gentler approach, a more compassionate route to following through with their intentions and goals.
I’ve made resolutions in the past, and they’ve sometimes left me feeling like a failure. Like I
couldn’t keep my promise to myself no matter how hard I tried. Eventually, I'd lead myself into a downward spiral of self-pity and over indulgence. I tend to get very pensive about life and myself (it’s one of those INFP qualities that I love) and while it's a great tool for me, it can also get me lost in my head, about my place in the world, and spinning on questions like, "What does it all mean? Am I doing the right thing? Will this ever change?". I'm beginning to understand that it all really comes down to me, and what my spirit is calling for me to do. Not what everyone else is doing, or what seems cool and trendy, but to selflessly search my whole heart, seek out my gifts, and begin sharing them with the world.
I am still to this day, endlessly fascinated with humanity, how the mind works, why people do the things that they do and how the body plays into all of this. My endless curiosity is driven by the desire to understand the connection between it all (the cosmos and us), and help bridge the gap on all of these seemingly separate entities.
"As above, so below"
P.S. A friendly reminder to my astrology folk out there, that Mercury is currently in retrograde. For those who aren’t familiar, it’s an occurance that takes place 3-4 times a year and is a time of miscommunication, unclear thinking and judgement, and breakdown of equipment. My two favorite sites to geek out about this you can find here and here.